so after three weeks of absolute no change in my state of mind my medication has been switched to effexor xr.... i don't know too much about it but it supposedly has a side effect of weight loss and loss of appetite. i hope it works for me and relieves my anxiety...and if i could lose a little weight too that would be okay :)
cross your fingers lovelies xoxo
god why do i keep logging onto facebook just to look at my ex boyfriend profile to see how he's moved on and is talking with other girls???
why does he get to move on and i can't???
i feel like he's just rubbing it in my face.
down .5 lbs today.
someone fucking kill me.
seriously just stick a fork in my neck and end this shitshow.
why does he get to move on and i can't???
i feel like he's just rubbing it in my face.
down .5 lbs today.
someone fucking kill me.
seriously just stick a fork in my neck and end this shitshow.
I tell you all to fuck off... but really FUCK ME.
FUCK ME… for my grades not being high enough, my body not being skinny enough, for my mind not being clear enough… everything I’ve done, its all not enough.
Fuck all of the guys who have broken my heart.
FUCK ME for letting it happen. You’ve made the past year… the past six months very difficult. I run into you. I wonder what happened, I wonder WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? Why do I end up as nothing more than the stupid girl you saw for two weeks… one month or one year? It makes a person go numb… it creates the inability to let anyone in.
FUCK ME for being so lost so confused and constantly second-guessing myself. Why? I was headed for seattle… a new life. People keep telling me “oh your so talented...” It’s all so overwhelming. This so called life is somewhat of a curse; the measures I go to to achieve perfection…
FUCK ME… for my grades not being high enough, my body not being skinny enough, for my mind not being clear enough… everything I’ve done, its all not enough.
Fuck all of the guys who have broken my heart.
FUCK ME for letting it happen. You’ve made the past year… the past six months very difficult. I run into you. I wonder what happened, I wonder WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? Why do I end up as nothing more than the stupid girl you saw for two weeks… one month or one year? It makes a person go numb… it creates the inability to let anyone in.
FUCK ME for being so lost so confused and constantly second-guessing myself. Why? I was headed for seattle… a new life. People keep telling me “oh your so talented...” It’s all so overwhelming. This so called life is somewhat of a curse; the measures I go to to achieve perfection…
FUCK ME for not being able to stay on top of my shit. I do what I can to make this manageable, organized, and endurable. I try to find time for myself but its not there. The last time I was at the gym was weeks ago. And I can’t even remember when I last had a full nights rest.
Fuck…
Sometimes I wonder how I get up in the morning. I wonder what’s the point… But I suppose it just happens… you just keep going.
Fuck…
Sometimes I wonder how I get up in the morning. I wonder what’s the point… But I suppose it just happens… you just keep going.
i'm fat.
i need to lose weight.
5"6'
cw-125.
help?
- Mood:
anxious
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